Of Paradox and Loopholes;

Why is there a point in your life that you wanted to scream…

Sceam till your lungs collapse and blood start pumping out…

Out of the insanity we all suffer, scream it all out, scream out the suffering, scream out everything and nothing at the same time, scream out this feeling of emptiness…

Such times like these I feel that I am blessed with conciousness, and think of this blessing as a curse..

Call it insecurity,
Call it misunderstanding,

I really feel like "shit" right now, worse is… I don’t even know the reason.

I really feel my life isn’t worth it… Maybe that’s why I act like an asshole sometimes…

Maybe it’s because I really don’t know myself anymore?

Or maybe because I hate what I’ve become

or maybe because I really don’t feel anything

Perhaps the fact that I tend to mess everything up whenever "THAT" person is around

Or is it because I stutter and become so god-damn self concious when "THAT" person smiles

Perhaps knowing that deep inside that "THAT" person wants to be friends with me, and have this thoughts that I might just be wishing and it may not be true…

I am indeed sad… I am indeed full of it…

In my pursuit of fooling Everybody…

I became thier fool instead…

Scared to let them know who I really am,

Scared to let myself know who I really am,

Yet, I continue on with my lies…

Ah, such mask I wear… Indeed tommorow is a new day…

So again, I prepare… I wear the mask I always did…

Become the persona I was with a mask…

And become my worst enemy once again…

It’s really a cycle when you think about it…

            I go home afterwards, tired from all the pretensions,

and then once again… ask myself…

Why?

Wow… I just finished my first ever hand-made revival of the Megaman 8’s intro theme…

Producing tracks are always fun.

Now my graphics’ skills are all good, my remixing skills are pretty developed too, now composing tracks, what’s next?

Want a preview of the song? Just message me up and I’d give you a link.

Note: This post should be read with silence. It was typed carefully in silence, in a silent room, full of silent earthly things, with utmost silent respect for the value of solemness… Shhh…. read in silence.

Please click the mouse softly, and try to maintain the silent aura… shhhh…. slow, easy and silent please…

We are offering this moment of silence to:

• The people who lost thier sandwiches this morning because of a deadly fungus growing out of the crust.
• The countless roaches stepped on by people of random walks of life. The poor, dirty, infected, Disease Carrying, FOODD Robbing, SNEAKY, IRRITATING, STUPID, DISGUSTING EXCUSE FOR AN INSECT!!! LEAVE ME ALONE YOU DISGUSTING CRITTER! oops, shhhh…. please maintain the silence… think of wide-open-spaces… wide-open-spaces…
• The countless fetuses concepted today, they are going to be enrolled in a school that will kill  them eventually as they advance years. It’s called LIFE.
• To the poor kid who almost got food-poisoning because of a sick bastard who made him eat some strange fungus from the ground cause he thought it was gum.
• The countless mosquitos silenced forever by palms of irritated housewives

• To the guy who writes this blog always hoping for some random priest from church to lose his mind and give him a year’s worth of donation money
• To the cute, orange-and-white kitten I saw today, who had eyes of cyan, and a smile of sun rays. How his eyes turned bloddy red and how his smile faded as he walked into the clutches of the evil crossroads of Commonwealth Avenue.

Silence please….

Shhhh….

Shhhh…

Shhh….

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Shit.

I think I heard our dog fart… Is it possible? I guess we’ll never know. Enjoy your Classes guys. Shhhhhh….

Raindrops ARE indeed falling on my head, but that doesn’t mean my eyez will soon be turnin red!

WHY?

Cuz I can’t light up a blunt in the middle of the rain, you dope! Complete waste of merchandise, plus I might get caught and spend the rest of mah life in prison( hey I still get allowance right?)

Just kidding.

It’s been a long time since I updated my blog, I guess I’ve been busy.

Busy with what?

Busy:

1. with my life
2. being an asshole
3. teasing sum friends
4. warding off ballistic fangirls(LOL!)
5. playing soccer(alone at times, at least I can beat myself XD)
6. denying all the claims of women tellin me I got dem pregnant

I mean, what is the world coming to?

Well anyway, I found this peculiar looking greenish-yellowish with black all over it thing near the plants where I was chillin yesterday textin sum friends. I was torn between judging it if it was either gum, or booger(hardened snot).

I dunno what came first, my curiousity, or my innate urge to call some unfortunate random kid, pay him 5 pesos to taste the nasty thing. But hey, they both got out of my system on the same time.

The kid did confirm that it was indeed gum, but I still have my doubts… I mean he is a kid afterall, they all think that booger taste like gum. Oh well, when the kid gets food-poisoning, I’ll tell them he ate some booger(they won’t ask if it was his right?)

Ok, I’ll stop with my disgusting ramblings now. Enjoy the weekend folks.

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Ah, Gwen Stefani… My dream girl (too bad she’s married).

What did I see in her?

Well first and foremost she started with a rebel punk image along with the boys of No Doubt, and undoubtedly(no pun intended) made classic tracks like Don’t Speak. There is something about a rebellious rocker girl that gets my rocks off.

Second, she’s sexy… sleek… and recently weird(look at her harajuku girls and you get the picture.)

No Doubt parted ways before Gwen released her album L.A.M.B. last December 2003, followed by the video "what you waitin for".

That’s when gwen started to go a bit overboard. I mean, the song was cool and pretty catchy, but the video… uhhh… too weird? But I loved it anyways.

Then came out Rich Girl, which was pretty cool! It had pirates and sexy ladies. But then, the harajuku girls became a bit more weirder.

The third video, Hollaback Girl, now I realy had to give the song credit cause I really can’t remove it from my head. The Neptune’s Pharell really did an amazing job and producing such catchy beats that would undoubtedly be played over and over once the football(giridon) season starts.

The first time I played it though, the only fcukin thing I noticed was the part
"This Sh*T is bananas, B-A-N-A-N-A-S"

rewind…

What? Did my idol, the very same Idol that wrote Don’t Speak just spell out some frickin fruit?

What the hell? I know bananas is a slang meaning "Cool" but it’s just … I dunno too 90’s?

Gwen, what have you done? You made me love your new song with the bananas and stuff… Good thing the video didn’t feature no giant bananas walking and sh*t. Though that would have been plain f*cked up funny!