Of Paradox and Loopholes;

WARNING: This isn’t meant to be read/analyzed as it is part of an experiment I’m doing. pouring my heart isn’t what I’m doing here. I’m using my mind instead to analyze things. The heart tends to be very erroneous and I can’t afford any more additional errors.

Just as the song goes, life is a duality of things… Duality and Sides that are contrary, but aren’t really contradictory. Although ironic, it makes sense. It’s simple really, very confusing in other words.

Remember-Forget

Truth-Lies

Hello-Goodbye

I can’t believe how this song applies to a lot of us. And I’m sure it applies to me, "the duality of life".

 

~I just can’t remember to forget you

        There are those instances when you know a person that is etched into your memory so hard-(diamond type of hard) that it is hard to forget them. The only way to do so is to try to remember(ironic isn’t it?) to forget them. The only problem is if you are forgetful in remembering. One moment you are thinking about what to eat/do/think and then "wham!". It starts to creep into your mind. Then before you know it, you’ve wasted your precious time to "the person", no amount of amnesia could ever make you forget.

    Why is it hard to forget that person? Maybe it is because of regret, maybe because of hate, or it could be a memory, or an event? In my case it is the connection. Connection, that I regreted to have disconnected myself. I don’t even know why I used the word but it seemed to fit. You just seem to know, "feel" that connection. I know most of you would feel that too.

~I’m honest to myself that the truth is I lied
   
    Accepting that you made a mistake takes a lot of effort, especially if you know that admitting so would make you actually look worse than before you make such a statement. Pride gets in the way, Self preservation gets in the way, alot of things gets in the way.

    Admitting to a fault you know you have no part to blame in is another thing though. I wonder what poison nature uses to the people when they lean towards attraction to a person, that makes them idiots.

    Yeah, I’ll be honest that I admitted to a lie, but I lied at the same time because I admitted something I didn’t do. Your head hurting yet? That’s how I exactly felt when I acted like an idiot. Now, if only I could bribe mother nature to sell me her "poison" and ask her if there is some antidote cause there are a bit too many people I know that are suffering from it. And I myself need an antidote badly right now.

On the side note: I’ve released the second revision of my NEW Arrangement of the Guilty Gear XX series. This is a remix of Baiken’s Theme and Anji Mito’s theme. Comments and Criticism bout the song are always welcome.  You can download the song(Membership not necessary) at:

http://vgmix.com/song_view.php?song_id=4932

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